So lately I've felt like I have this huge brick wall over the creative part of my brain. I keep trying to write, because I want to write, and it keeps ending very poorly. Sometimes I'll have an inkling of an idea and I'll open my journal to write it and nothing comes out and I end up writing the date, sitting there for five minutes, then crossing it off and going to do something else. It's like all my ideas are cowering behind the brick wall, and if one brave one tries to escape, it runs at full force and immediately smacks into the brick wall.
And I don't like this. I used to be able to write full scenes that took up like eight pages in my journal in one sitting, and now I can barely finish three pages and therefore end up stopping in the middle of a scene which I hate. And all my scenes are dull, and repetative, and just NOT FUN AT ALL ASDLFA;FOHFVNDSALKJ.
Whew. Okay sorry. So yeah. Well the point of this is, I've been sitting on a book idea since... I guess last June. I've been sitting on a book idea for an entire year and planned out characters and a bit of plot and (which characters I'm going to kill lol oops) and stuff like that. But I haven't done anything with it because I still don't have the entire plot mapped out and I don't know what to do in the boring in between bits and then I realized that THAT'S REALLY STUPID WHY ARE YOU STUPID LISA.
Because seriously, that's what a rough draft is for. I think the problem is I've tried many times(okay like twice) to write a whole book and both times I've stopped because it isn't good or I lose steam or I get busy with life or I just don't want to do it anymore. And I so desperately don't want to do that with this one because it's good and I really like it and I think other people will like it. I mean all my beta readers (aka best friends)have liked it so far, but you know they're my best friends so they're not going to say they hate it. Except Allye. She would tell me.
But yeah. So I've decided that the only way to break through the Brick Wall of Stupid is to just keep writing and making those little ideas slam into the wall until it finally breaks. So far I've written... well... two pages of this book. In two days. But you know what, I'm making progress.
So here's to perseverance. Or pigheadedness or whatever the heck you want to call it. Hopefully soon I'll have more exciting things to share.
Until next time
Stay classy.
Lisa
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Hey Lisa! Funny story, the thing that helps me most with writer's block is spending like 15 minutes writing all the random words that come to mind. Sometimes I fill pages. It's usually a big mess of things that don't make any sense at all. But afterwords, it's like I'm loose enough to let the crazy ideas get through. Just a thought.
ReplyDeleteLisa, first of all I wanna say I'm super excited 'cause I know for a fact I'm one of your beta readers and that title freaks me out/thrills me to no end =) But yeah, everything I've ever heard/read about writing well says to just write Something every day, and it doesn't matter if it's good, bad, weird, or random words scribbled on a page, it's still writing. I've even noticed in my own writing, the times when I'm able to come up with something good are when I've been practicing regularly. Writing is like your dancing; even if you have a rough practice one day where you feel really stupid, or you've been struggling with a particular dance for a long while, it's still good for you and it makes you better in the long run =) Go for it, girl!
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