Pictures

Alright, i realize i just posted, but i want to show you some pictures i've taken


Alyssa Barlow! (With her sister Lauren behind her)



My big bro'



The Capitol Building



The Air Force Memorial in Washington DC. I'm pretty proud of this one.



My friend's little sister and American Bulldog.



My grandma's cat Abby



A fountain we had at our church for a while.

Lent

I've decided, Lent sucks. Now for all you non-Christians/Christians who have no idea what I'm talking about, Lent is the forty days before lent that we "Frozen Chosen" (Aka, Presbyterians) symbolize as the time when Jesus fasted for forty days in the desert. It is typical, during Lent, to give up something. For example, chocolate, (although I'm not sure what possesses people to do that. I think I would die) food one day a week, Facebook, etc. This is the first year I've attempted to give up something and let me just tell you, it sucks. See, sometime after Christmas, I went to Best Buy and bought myself a new iTouch. In the time I've had it, it has pretty much been permanently attached to my hand. Sooo... that's what I have up. Now, don't get the impression that I gave up music. I think I would die. Especially if I gave up chocolate and music! that would be catastrophic. Anywho, no I did not give up music, I still listen to my old Mp3, but I gave up all the apps. In some ways, it's been kind of nice being unplugged, but still. I can't just look up something as I think of it. The good thing is, I only have 17 days left! Easter morning the first thing I do when I get up will probably be to play sheep throw. haha. Oh, by the way, Happy St. Patrick's Day! I almost forgot. Top O' the mornin' to ya! ;)

Woops

Hey peeps. sorry i haven't posted in a while. I'm here in Kentucky visiting my sister at college. i have to say, college life is pretty cool. i've visited for the past what... three years? i'm sad though because my sister's a senior this year, so i wont be able to visit anymore. :( oh well. i'll enjoy it while it lasts. haha. my sister just walked in the room and goes. "Mmm i smell good, smell me" haha. well..... i really don't have that much to say. why did i even start a blog? i have nothing to say! well... ok that's a lie. i have plenty to say, i just really can't think of anything right now... MUSIC MAN! i loooooooove the music man. i hear they came out with one that has Kristin Chenoweth in it? i want to see it. our tape broke. :( i wish i could find a DVD of it somewhere. someday.. "when i'm awfully low, bla bla bla bla... i dont know the words..." anyway, that was supposed to be "The Way You Look Tonight." except i don't know the words. i should work on that. ok. i'm going to stop blabbing now. goodbye. have a good saturday. (or sunday if your in China. or would it be Friday?...)

Teenaged anxt or what ever the heck you call it

You know that feeling when you have a crush on someone who's completely out of your league? Someone deep and funny, but uninterested or just completely oblivious? (as all guys are ;)) I know that feeling all too well. I have a huge crush on someone completely wonderful, but does he notice? Nope. Of course not. And it's not like I'm going to tell him. I don't even know him that well to be honest. But he's great you know? Even if he isn't interested in me (which I can pretty much guarantee he's not) I would love to just hang out and get to know him. And seriously, it's not as if I'm in desperate need of a boyfriend or anything. I want one, I'm not going to lie, but still. I'm only fourteen. Anyway, thenks for listening to my insaneness once again. Peace.

The beauties of life should never be taken for granted

I am in a really good mood today. Reasons:
-my sister is home and we are just hanging out, which is reallynice.
-I have movie night tonight :)
-I get to see my besties who ihavent seen since before Christmas
-My brother is sortof home and has taken to torturing me :)
-There is at least two inches, if not more, of snow onthe ground
-Its a new year filled with all sorts ofnew possibilities
-...andbasically everything good in the world right now

Thoughts of the heart and mind

I'd like to say I know exactly what I am supposed to do. Unfortunately, that isn't the case. A lot of people probably thinkthat since I'm only fourteen I haven't had time to mess up my life. That is about as far from the truth as it could get. Sometimes I wonder if I'll pick the right path. I worried that I won't do what God intended for me. Pocahontas was more sure of her path then I will ever be. I like knowing what is going on. I hate not knowing, or not understanding. But I read a verse a while ago that has become my motto. It says "We may throw the dice, but the Lord determines how they fall." (Proverbs 16:33) I like that analogy. It tells us that no matter how much we screw up, no matter how we defy Him, His purpose will always be played out through out lives.

Rantings

There was a time in my life when all I thought about was myself. Not that I knew it then. I'm not even sure I fully understand it now. I wasn't consciously self absorbed, but it was there. In the plain old fashion of speaking, I was thinking about someone else. Someone that didn't even exist. But I wanted it to exist so badly because I wanted it to be mine. We have these feelings as children, not quite in the full sense. When I was little, I wanted to be a mermaid. I knew it couldn't happen, but I wanted it to be true. I would go to the public pool with my best friend and swim with my feet stuck together just to see what it would feel like. Then, this imaginary character was implanted in my mind and I felt like the little girl at the pool all over again, taping my ankles together so I would have a tail.
There is some minute level of Godliness in all of this want. I once read that the reason we wanted imaginary things to be true is because in our minds, they are close in likeness to heaven. In our minds, heaven is a place like Narnia without Jadis, or Oz with out the Wicked Witch of the West. Heaven is a place where all our dreams come true. It is earth without poverty and ignorance and corruption. It is our shallow fantasy of a perfect place.
Charles Dickens said it best when he described ignorance. He described it as a scrawny little boy, with Want as a sister. He said to beware them both, but mostly the boy. Ignorance is part of the problem of humanity. We see things like poverty and hunger and AIDs, but turn the TV off because we dont want to think of it. We say it's because it is so horrible, that it makes us sad, but in truth, it is because we are scared little girls and boys hiding under our beds when our parents fight.
I'm not sure what made me think about all this. Maybe it's because i'm feeling philosophical. More likely because i'm reading Blue Like Jazz, and it's making me think about this sort of thing, which is something I don't normally like to do. Some of it scares me, some makes me angry, and some I just plain don't understand. I don't like not understanding. If I were a demigod, it would be my fatal flaw. Anyway, hope you don't mind my rantings. And maybe I got you thinking. That wouldn't necessarily be a bad thing.

~Lisa